Searching (under construction)

Nothin’ to do,

Nowhere to go,

No one to fuck,

No one to hold.

I’m all alone,

I’m just a guy,

In a big world,

With a big skyyyyyyyyy – ya haiiiii

yo ho

Now I’m a pirate.

Riding a dinosaur.

We’re flying through space.

Ask us, what we are looking for.

And I don’t know yet,

But I’ll make you a bet,

That I

Will find

Me soon.

Stumble Music

I’ve recently begun working on the melody to Stumble in hopes that I can get someone to play it for me so I can record it and put it up on youtube for everyone to see, everyone being whoever reads this, my friends, and my family. The ideal goal is for it to get popular enough for me to want to record the other songs, then perhaps go into that business somehow so I don’t have to spend the rest of my life in a cubicle or lab working on stuff I don’t particularly care much about.

Or maybe I’ve just been watching too much Entourage.

-ML

Fallen Tears

Verse #1
Sitting alone here in my bed,
Thinkin’ about the things you’ve said,
Wondering if your honesty
Can be trusted.
Why did it take such a long time
For all of the lies to unwind?
Running the scenarios
All day in my mind,

Pre-Chorus
Is it a crime
Of mine?

Chorus
And now we’re both alone
Together,
Feeling dark and cold
Forever,
Wishing that our past
Will come to pass
Just one more time.
And now we’re face to face
Once again,
Lost without a trace
Of a friend,
Wond’ring if our fight
Will shed some light
On fallen tears.

Verse #2
Such a long painful time has passed,
I wonder how long it will last,
Debating if it went slow or
If it went fast.
I don’t care how long it will take,
All I want is to see your face,
I’ll pack all of my things
And leave without a trace,

Pre-Chorus
And I’ll escape
This place,

Chorus
So we can be alone
Together,
Feeling dark and cold
Forever,
Wishing that our past
Will come to pass
Just one more time.
And now we’re face to face
Once again,
Lost without a trace
Of a friend,
Wond’ring if our fight
Will shed some light
On fallen tears.

Verse #3
On fallen tears.
These tears fall for you,
And only you.

Chorus #2
And now we’re both alone
Together,
Lost without a trace
Of a friend,
Wishing that our past
Will shed some light
On fallen tears.

Chorus
And now we’re both alone
Together,
Feeling dark and cold
Forever,
Wishing that our past
Will come to pass
Just one more time.
And now we’re face to face
Once again,
Lost without a trace
Of a friend,
Wond’ring if our fight
Will shed some light
On fallen tears.

First Song

Hey all, I’m pretty sure I’ve had at least  a few readers now, so I guess it’s time to post one of my songs. This one is called Stumble; I wrote it a few years back. It’s basically about shit happening to you to a point where it’s gotten a little too frustrating to deal with, especially since no one seems to be able to understand your pain (college students studying harder than your peers, this one’s for you…) Enjoy.

Verse #1
The alarm
Rings loudly.
I pound the snooze,
Go back to sleep.
No hurry,
Life can wait.
All I want to do
Is escape.

Pre-Chorus
I’ll run away
To a place
Where I can be free
All day.

Chorus
I’m running fast,
And won’t slow down
Till it comes to pass
That I have found
Someone who’s real
And understands
Just how it feels
To fail a chance.

Verse #2
I’ve fallen,
Hit misery,
Tripped on myself,
Who’ll catch me?
The floor tastes
Of concrete,
I’ve hit my face on
A place for feet.

Pre-Chorus
I’m falling fast,
Pick myself up,
Put my feet
On my face.

Chorus
I’m running fast,
And won’t slow down
Till it comes to pass
That I have found
Someone who’s real
And understands
Just how it feels
To fail a chance.

Pre-Chorus
I have fallen
Down and I
Can’t pick myself up
This time.

Chorus
I ran too fast,
Didn’t slow down,
It came to pass
I never found
Someone who’s real
And understands
Just how it feels
To fail a chance.

Chorus #2
I never found
Someone who’s real
And understands
Just how it feels
To fail a chance.

Let me know what you think!

-ML

The Past, Concluded

That’s all for this batch of poetry. Feel free to comment on any of them when you get the chance. I have a few more from that batch that I can’t post yet because they are largely tabbed and I haven’t yet figured out how to add whitespace to a line. I’ll be posting a bunch of songs I’ve written sometime later on, so look out for those. And hopefully afterwards I’ll have some new stuff for you, perhaps a rant or rove, or maybe I could throw up a piece of prose I’ve written. Anyway, take care for now.

-ML

And Again

“Hey, how are you?”

How am I?

Terrible. Depressed. Broken.
Bombed that calc test.
Failed the history paper.
Got kicked off the network,
But my computer fried anyway.
My meal plan disappeared.
I’m sore from running.
Girlfriend said we need time apart.
Two papers due tomorrow.
I’ve needed to do laundry for days.
Window’s still broken.
Friends out of town.
My allergies are acting up.

Fuck.

How do you think I am?

“Fine, and you?”

Repeat as necessary.

Peorty

If my mind serves me correctly, this is another poem about my ex.

I’m not a good poet,
At least compared to you,
For the words get lost
From my mind to the page.
How do you explain to someone
You love them more than is possible,
You think about them 29 hours a day,
You spend every free moment
Trying to make them smile?
But words are not my strength.
Perhaps this connection we share will do.
This bond, that spans a million miles,
That I feel even when you sleep,
When I sleep, when you’re working,
When I’m in class, always.
When the tears come to me at night,
I think of you, and our bond.
The wavelength that defies physics.
And everything is alright.
When I put my arms around you,
And feel your warmth and love,
That is when everything is as
Amazing as it can be.

I may not have the words.
I may not even be there.
But I hope you still know;
Without words I think of you always,
And I am always with you there.

I’m not a good poet.
But I’m good at loving you.

A Decision

‘Tis night of late
And minds doth stir;
My mind, mind you,
Is somewhat blurred.

For now, to me,
A test is here:
Do I to sleep?
My bed is near,

And dreams of you
Would soon to come.
Or should I stay
Awake for some

Time, for I know
That thoughts of you
Will always be
In my mind through.

To stay awake
And know you’re here,
Or go to sleep,
And chance you’re near,

Is quite the test.
I think of you,
And my love true,
As I drift off to sleep.

Heart Story

I can’t quite remember when I wrote this, but my best guess that it was written shortly after I met my current ex.

For a while now,
My love,
I have been testing my mind
To put words on paper that
Tell the story of my heart.
In other cases this has been
Simple and quite easy for
Me to do, but for some
Reason poetry to you comes
Unnatural to me.
But lately I have come to
An understanding.
I cannot tell the story of
My heart for you,
My love,
Are the one who
Holds it.
And I cannot put words to
Paper because there are
None
That can tell you
The story of my heart.

Storms

Another poem about my second girlfriend, but with better imagery.

Lightning seems to me a twisting,
Luminous snake that crawls down
From the heavens to the earth.
Thunder is that whip-
CRACK!
When the snake stretches itself out
Too far.
And then there are the torrents
Of wind, crying in conflict.

But even now as this vision is
Held in my mind, the clouds clear.
The lightning becomes her bright smile,
The stars the twinkle in her eyes.
Out of a fading night comes forth
My love, beautiful as the summer night sky.

But love is a storm.
The wind picks up again, and the
Rain streaks down my face,
Mixing with salt-water sorrows.
The clouds have covered her face now,
And the lightning strikes the
Fragile, broken pieces of
A shattered heart.